“Remember only that I was innocent and, just like you,
mortal on that day. I, too, had a face marked by rage, by pity and joy, quite
simply, a human face!”
-
Benjamin Fondane, murdered at Auschwitz, 1944
They will be gone and the camp will be the only eyewitness
remaining. This is how our guide ended our tour today, speaking about the
decreasing numbers of survivors of the
Holocaust, and specifically of Auschwitz. This is a hard truth.
As absurd as it may be to organize my thoughts on the troubling
nature of what we saw today, the theme of numbers sticks with me. Numbers can be
impersonal, and too often our understanding of the vastness of the Holocaust
revolves around statistics. (And perhaps it’s the safety of talking about an
abstraction like numbers that allows me to process the experience of today.)
Our time this week together started in Warsaw at the Museum of
the History of Polish Jews, curated with the intent to emphasize not statistics
and hatred and death, but rather rich lives and personal history. Today seemed
to live in that intersection of numbers and personal story. These numbers, and stories,
were visible in what was left behind.
Combs. Shoes. Eyeglasses. Piled high. Various shapes and
sizes, suggesting the variety of people who they belonged to.
Hair. So much hair. In ways, the most personal of what we
saw, and yet, like the impact of the broader Nazi policies, stripped of their humanity
and viewed as product.
And to think that the volume of these items, jarring in
scope and emotional scale, only represent a minute fraction of the real numbers
of devastation.
I don’t want to see it. It’s too much. It’s too hard to see,
to consider, to grapple with.
I have to see it. To confront it. To honor those individual
lives lived. To bear witness, secondhand, to those multitudes of personal
stories, not numbers, who are no longer here.
These competing thoughts existed simultaneously for me. And
I am deeply grateful I don’t have to contend with these ideas alone, supported
by a wise and thoughtful group of Facing History colleagues.
The sheer numbers were most
literally and personally felt by me in looking at the Book of Names, which
documents, to the broadest extent possible, the names, places of origin, and place
of death, for the six-plus million who perished. The book, standing many feet
high, filled most of the length of a room, and was in ways the most personal,
as visitors could search for family and other loved ones, or perhaps just look
at the vast range of names of those killed.
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